The post below is part of what I just sent to my email list. I’ve been wanting to get back to blogging, like I did before I started popping out kids. I feel very blessed and content with my little surprise 3rd baby. I used to say that 3 kids would be nice, if money, time, career, fitting them all in the car were not a factor. Now I keep singing that song “Three is a magic number” in my head… “Yes it is… It’s a magic number”. I have a brother and a sister and I have often thought that we are like a tripod, the way we lean on and support each other. Way stronger than two. As much as we have needed each other, I simply cannot imagine that my life would be anywhere near as rich with just my sister or just my brother, nor that we would be as close without all three of us.
So hooray! We did it! 3 kids in less than 4 years. I’m so relieved not to be pregnant any more and other than remaining present for every little moment of having such young children, the only thing to do is make music. To carve out the space to write more, lot’s more… really good songs and record them really well and collaborate with wonderful people. I flirted with all sorts of things, people, emotions before I was a mom. I’m so glad not to be that girl anymore, but at the same time, there is a lot from earlier that I hope to tap back into. The days of journaling for hours in a coffee shop are like the glory days of my youth now. I used to go there to “make” myself write. When you’re paying someone by the hour to watch your kids so that you can have a short spurt to yourself in a coffee shop to write, it’s just not the same. Instead of going into a zone where if it were not my own handwriting, I wouldn’t remember having ever written what’s on the page, it’s like, “Ready, Set, Be Creative”. I have certainly become more efficient, but I don’t think I’ve really gotten into the subconscious zone in years. I am officially looking forward to that next.